It has been 4 months since my last post…..that’s right, 4 months!
So where have I been?
Festering in a pool of my own self doubt, that’s where.
No seriously, I started this blog with the best intentions, I mean seriously, I invested hard earned money into this thing and then just, as usual, let it drop off because I spend too much time doubting myself and worrying about what people think.
Before returning to the blogging world I started following a whole heap of Adelaide ‘influencers’ on instagram, that was my first mistake.
Might be worth putting in a disclaimer here that this isn’t at all about ‘influencers’, it’s all me.
I would spend hours scrolling through my feed being ever jealous of these women who seemed like they had their shit together. They were always posing at the latest event with a glass of champers in their hands, head to toe in designer outfits having the time of their life, on a week night might I add. Then I’d look down at my flannel pjs, night time tea in hand, pimple cream on my spots and wonder what I was doing with myself.
I kept thinking why can’t I be glamorous? why can’t I be invited to the latest events? why can’t I have a glass of champers in my hand right now?
Truth be told, I could, if I wanted to, I’m just lazy and it isn’t what I want.
It took a while, 3 months to be exact, for me to realise that isn’t what I want. I don’t want evenings filled with uncomfortable clothes, stomach full of social anxiety, sipping on a drink I can’t stand, wondering when the acceptable time to leave is because let’s face it, I’d rather be home on my couch in flannel pjs with a night time tea in hand.
I keep letting myself get into these spirals where I constantly compare myself to others and as much as I tell myself not to do it, I can’t help it. I’m not perfect, no one is.
In saying all this, I do hope to resurrect this tired old blog from the grave. What are my intentions for it? I don’t know. I know I should stick to a ‘theme’ but I think my ‘theme’ will just be, life.
Matt and I have had an exciting few months that I want to share with you all and we have some REALLY exciting things planned in the next few months and I want to be able to share that with you all. #notpregnant
Till’ next time